This Crazy Thing We Call Life

Last time I blogged, it was the night before my first day of school. Now, I am two weeks in... and already feeling overwhelmed. Ultimately, classes have a very different feel to them now. I find myself always relating the topics to science, and more specifically trying to relate them to my research somehow. I also find myself struggling to sit in a normal classroom lecture to learn. I am constantly craving to be back into the lab and getting my research done. However, I keep telling myself that all classes are equally important and will contribute to my overall critical thinking skills and the ability to learn. It just seems so strange to me to be wanting to be doing hands-on work rather than the classroom learning. 

As for my education, this semester I am taking biochemistry I, biochemistry lab, physics I and physics lab, intro to logic and archaeology of the Americas. I really like all of my classes and professors so far. I am not looking forward to the amount of time required for a good grade in physics, but it is all a part of the learning experience and one that I am willing to try my hardest on! I must say that biochemistry is truly fascinating!

 

My life has consisted of classes and lab so far. I truly find it so hard to get out of lab. There is so much research to be done, and I really want to learn it all. There are currently several deadlines looming ominously ahead of me. I will feel so much better when I complete them. I had one major accomplishment already, which was completing my undergraduate research paper on the synthesis of my antioxidant dendrimer. I turned it in on Tuesday, September 3rd. :-)  

As I delve deeper into my research and chemistry courses, I get more and more excited for graduate school. I eagerly await the time where I get to take courses so relevant to my interests and be wholeheartedly working on my research interests. However, I accept the challenge of maintaining my busy undergraduate classwork and my current research endeavors! And heck, while I am being so optimistic, I am even going to try to enjoy my life a little. Get to see my friends on occasion and take some time to relax when I need it. 

When I began this post tonight, I was very overwhelmed with the thoughts of everything that I still have to have done before Monday. This is also personally a very hard time of the year for me. In two days it will be the second year since the passing of my mom, and I still greatly miss her. Sometimes it would be so nice to just hear her voice or have a hug. But I know to stay strong. So, as I finish this post, I have realized that I will be okay. I will work as hard as I can and try my best and let the world unfurl its wonders to me as I work. Whatever happens, happens. :-)